The first draft
What do you fear the most? And why do you fear something? Well, for me, I fear my future the most. It may sound awkward for some of you, but I really am NOT confident with how I would live all by myself. I can not say that I will have a sucessfull life or not. I fear what would happen to me when I am all by myself...
I have heard before that people tend to get scared of cockroaches or mice or snakes. I would say, those are more of a disgust to me rather than a real fear. And I have also heard that many people are scared of darkness or loneliness. Well, being lonely may sound very dull and scary because there is no one beside you; however it has its own beneficial sides as well. I take loneliness as an advantage or one of the very few moments in your life that you should really appreciate and use wisely. For me, when I am alone I always observe my behaviour and believes. I can make real judgements on myself only when no one is around me. Loneliness provides me with this opportuinity of discovering myself. Even though, I count loneliness positively; darkness is not the same. I hate being in a dark.
I thought of why I fear darkness; however it lead to the same reason why I am scared of my future. When there is absolutely dark, I get scared because I do not know what is really waiting for me. My eyes will not see anything in the dark; however if its dark from the beginning my eyes will get used to the darkness and constantly things will become visible to me. But then, if the darkness comes all of a sudden, then absolutely nothing will be visible to me and it will take quiet a time for me to get used to it. Well, the same aspect is applying to my fear of the future. I have had almost a perfect life. I was happy all the time, and still I am satisfied with my life due to the fact that everything was done for me by my parents. I never had to work for myself except my only duty which is school. I am not confident in myself that I can live independently and having as happy life as I have now. I am scared of failing and the unpredictible future.
Some of you may think I am just trying to find difficulties in my life. Maybe, you are right. Maybe I am having a very good life that I am just trying to find an excuse to feel fear...
However, this idea of me fearing my future bothers me a lot. The good thing about it, is that I get motivated to do well in school so that I can accomplish my goals and continue my happy life. But on the other hand side, many of my friends tell me that I should not fear something that is not in the present.
Fearing my future is not the biggest issue in my life right now, I am still a teenager. Well, as times is passing and I am growing I just understand that I should develop myself more to overcome the fear...
FINAL DRAFT
What do you fear the most? And why do you fear something? Well, for me, I fear my future the most. It may sound awkward for some of you, but I really am NOT confident with how I would live all by myself. I fear what would happen to me when I am all by myself...
I have heard before that people tend to get scared of cockroaches, mice or snakes. I would say, those are more of a disgust for me rather than a real fear. Teenagers are frightened of the new aspects in their life, since they are less experienced compared to the adults. Fearing to take a risk or failing is one of the weaknesses of people during their adolescence. Even biologically young adults are not prepared to take a lot of pressure, they tend to become very sensitive during their puberty. Maybe that is where I am.
I have also heard that many people are scared of darkness or loneliness. Well, being lonely may sound very dull and scary because there is no one beside you; however it has its own beneficial sides as well. I take loneliness as an advantage; or one of the very few moments in your life that you should really appreciate and use wisely. For me, when I am alone I always observe my behaviour and believes. I can make real judgements on myself only when no one is around me. Loneliness provides me with this opportuinity of discovering myself. Even though, I count loneliness positively; darkness is not the same. I hate being in a dark.
I thought of why I fear darkness; however it lead to the same reason why I am scared of my future. When there is absolutely dark, I get scared because I do not know what is really waiting for me. My eyes will not see anything in the dark; however if its dark from the beginning my eyes will get used to the darkness and constantly things will become visible to me. But then, if the darkness comes all of a sudden, then absolutely nothing will be visible and it will take quiet a time for me to get used to it. Well, the same aspect is applying to my fear of the future. I have had almost a perfect life. I was happy all the time, and still I am satisfied with my life due to the fact that everything was done for me by my parents. I never had to work for myself except my only duty, which is school. I am not confident in myself that I can live independently and having as happy life as I have now. I am scared of failing and the unpredictible future.
Some of you may think I am just trying to find difficulties in my life. Maybe, you are right. Maybe I am having a very good life that I am just trying to find an excuse to feel fear...
However, this idea of me fearing my future bothers me a lot. The good thing about it, is that I get motivated to do well in school so that I can accomplish my goals and continue my happy life. But on the other hand side, many of my friends tell me that I should not fear something that is not in the present.
Fearing my future is not the biggest issue in my life right now, I am still a teenager. Well, as time is passing and I am growing; I just understand that I should develop myself more to overcome the fear...
I have heard before that people tend to get scared of cockroaches, mice or snakes. I would say, those are more of a disgust for me rather than a real fear. Teenagers are frightened of the new aspects in their life, since they are less experienced compared to the adults. Fearing to take a risk or failing is one of the weaknesses of people during their adolescence. Even biologically young adults are not prepared to take a lot of pressure, they tend to become very sensitive during their puberty. Maybe that is where I am.
I have also heard that many people are scared of darkness or loneliness. Well, being lonely may sound very dull and scary because there is no one beside you; however it has its own beneficial sides as well. I take loneliness as an advantage; or one of the very few moments in your life that you should really appreciate and use wisely. For me, when I am alone I always observe my behaviour and believes. I can make real judgements on myself only when no one is around me. Loneliness provides me with this opportuinity of discovering myself. Even though, I count loneliness positively; darkness is not the same. I hate being in a dark.
I thought of why I fear darkness; however it lead to the same reason why I am scared of my future. When there is absolutely dark, I get scared because I do not know what is really waiting for me. My eyes will not see anything in the dark; however if its dark from the beginning my eyes will get used to the darkness and constantly things will become visible to me. But then, if the darkness comes all of a sudden, then absolutely nothing will be visible and it will take quiet a time for me to get used to it. Well, the same aspect is applying to my fear of the future. I have had almost a perfect life. I was happy all the time, and still I am satisfied with my life due to the fact that everything was done for me by my parents. I never had to work for myself except my only duty, which is school. I am not confident in myself that I can live independently and having as happy life as I have now. I am scared of failing and the unpredictible future.
Some of you may think I am just trying to find difficulties in my life. Maybe, you are right. Maybe I am having a very good life that I am just trying to find an excuse to feel fear...
However, this idea of me fearing my future bothers me a lot. The good thing about it, is that I get motivated to do well in school so that I can accomplish my goals and continue my happy life. But on the other hand side, many of my friends tell me that I should not fear something that is not in the present.
Fearing my future is not the biggest issue in my life right now, I am still a teenager. Well, as time is passing and I am growing; I just understand that I should develop myself more to overcome the fear...
My podcast!
Here is my podcast. Although I have planned to publish my podcast on iTunes, there were variety of problems that I could not overcome. So I decided to publish it on podomatic.com. I did downloaded it on podomatic.com, but the podcast is without the background music. So I made another version on my blog so that people can check out easily and comment on.
Though this is the link to my podcast on podomatic.com
http://urangoo.podomatic.com/entry/2010-01-17T06_20_47-08_00
